January 13th, 2005

Bumaba ako sa jeepney
Kung saan tayo'y dating magkatabi
Magkahalik ang pisngi nating dalawa,nating dalawa

Panyo mo sa aking bulsa
Kung ang kahapon ay naroon pa rin
Ang tawa nati'y humahalay
Sa init nating dalawa

Subalit ngayo'y wala na
Ikaw ay lumayo na

Naaalala ko ang mga gabing nakahiga sa ilalim ng
kalawakan.naaalala ko ang mga gabing magkatabi sa
ulan

Kulay ng iyong ngiti
Tikwas ng iyong buhok
Ang lambot ng iyong labi,iyong labi

Kahit anino mo sa malayo
Ay nais masulyapan
Upang mapawi ang lamig

Subalit ngayo'y wala na
Ikaw ay lumayo na

Naaalala ko ang mga gabing nakahiga sa ilalim ng
kalawakan.naaalala ko ang mga gabing magkatabi sa
ulan

I remeber
Spending time together
Being happy and being glad
Never ever being sad
But some how those days have gone away
Leaving me here to stray
Into the darkness I disappered
Now around others I am feared
For in the darkness theres no light
And no way for me to fight
The shadows of the past
Making my most painful moments forever last
Blocking my veiw of the truth
Taking away all my youth
The shadows of the past may go a stray
But they'll return anther day
Bring more pain and torture for me
Chaining my heart so I will never be free
From my life and from my curse
Think about it what could be wrost?
To spend an eternity with out any love
Or to be taken from it on the wings of a dove
Never to see that one again
Knowing for eternity you'll have to pertend
That you don't care anymore
Closing and locking and shutting that door
So maybe your heart can mend
Just so one day it will all come to an end
And then what does it matter what you did or did not do
Does it even matter all the pain that you went threw
And all the tears
Through all the years
Will not count for more then it's due
And all that matters is that your remebered by those
who love you

As he walked he talked he heard his ruthless words
turned my world.
The game he played It made to take My love, my
heart, my mind away.

So slouching here against this wall. My life has met
his turn to fall.

Cold, empty, gauntness resides embeded in my souls,
my eyes to show the lengths of tears i've cried.

In my life i'm lost alone, I'm confused about the love
he's shown.

Darkness slowly dawns upon me As I weep so lost
and lonely About the love i've lost so coldly.

I see my eyes filled with grief, reflected from my blade
of relief.

A tingling sensation occurs as i begin to calm my
nerves and watch the blood spill to the dirt.

My crimson blood, it brings my joy, for its sight is very
coy.

It represents the death of me, And horrible is what
people see.

But to me it brings my one desire, To stop my burning
rage and fire.

Pondering the facts;face smothered in hands
Twisted thoughts still race;through this evil mind
I don't understand, can't understand

Conscience is fading; exhaling the vile
Kneeling on the earth; the devil smiles
I don't understand, can't understand

(chorus)
You are the keeper of death
Watching me breathe this last breath
My cries will remain unheard
Soul lies within the absurd

You are the taker of life
watching me sit here and fight
My screams will fall on deaf ears
realizing all my fears

(verse 2)
Avoiding attacks;keep meeting demands
Call me a disgrace; to all of mankind
I won't understand, won't understand

Still contemplating; crawling that mile
Battle's at it's worst; the Devil smiles
I now understand, now understand

(chorus)
You are the keeper of death
Watching me breathe this last breath
My cries will remain unheard
Soul lies within the absurd

You are the taker of life
watching me sit here and fight
My screams will fall on deaf ears
realizing all my fears


(ending)
It was my first chance; razor blade in hand
Skull's leaving my skin; make it go away
Let them understand, please understand

Now I'm lying here in black
they want to deny the facts
Never meant to cause them tears
I've infected them for years

Agony reflects; their keen denial
kneeling on my grave; the Devil smiles

They don't understand, can't understand
won't understand,
why the Devil Smiles

well, la nmn masyadong mgndang nangyari sakin... pero i clebrated my new year with my family & special someone, masaya... first new year q na kasama ang aking minamahal...

pasukan n nmn, bilis ng araw, cnicpag n qng pumasok kaya lng ung isang tropa lilipat n ng skul... c dugay un, lipat n cia sa pup, nabawasan n nmn ang tropa q dito sa skul... la n din me kasabay umuwi, pero ok lng, life must go on, lapit lng nmn bahay nila samin pwede q p nmn ciang puntahan...

basta ngaun... magaaral n qng mabuti, at isa sa mga achievement q is di n q ganun kaadik mgonline, once a week n lng, tama lng to, tipid sa pera at may oras p q para makapagpahinga...